rough times

Dear Mark and Joan
I’m going thru a rough time in my life, as I mention last month I lost my job and I had surgery, I just finished viewing our 3rd meeting, it is interesting to know why you chose me, all my life I have felt out of place and searching for answers, now I find my self having to move to another state, and searching for a new job, having to market my self, so looking at the number of applications a send and the common denominator, I still have to find that, but I think that would be me, since basically I’m selling my self, for I need to have a job to create once again my mini-day that makes me an income doing what I love to do which is event and wedding planning. with no income it is hard for me to make any payments on the secret web site, I truly believe that I would do much more by being part of it, and as soon as I start getting money in my bank account that will be the first thing I will do. I truly hope you all understand my situation at this point, having to live with my brother and depending on him financially will be difficult, did I share to much?
Thank you for all your teachings, for choosing me, I hope I don’t let you down.