refliecting # 2

point #2 i recieved vision of where this was taking me in a business right a way barely into first manual and thought i had a complete picture but after this listen i was missing a few pieces to the puzzles knew them but could not id them until this lesson very important to id the pieces to get a clear idea to myself but in relating to you even more important to id save alot of time there point # 3 that being all important COMMON DENOMINATOR in point three a little background to bring you up to speed to this decsion of today when i joined sure there was a vision of final some money coming my way even if just to sustain life wrong lol i abandoned a desparate dream of just getting back to nature and retire from all the cahotic world of people not know where this would be taking me but (i was following as ususal) never wanting to be in the lead i had some very close calls with health made a move to town to a apt. never liked that idea but follow i was lol knowing that now after today my money disappeared even faster the more i tried to stay with this program to the point of many wrong choices brought me to not realy even enough to cover my bills to the point of not going anywhere because car was pretty much totaled do to an encounter with a cow at approximatly 50 mph and naturaly no owner to cover the cost and i with certainly none things continual went down to where i thought there is know way out i was being punished for the path i had chosen (we are shedding here mark lol) getting rid of the old preparing for the new very scary when you are totaly alone except for kids who can not be bothered final a few weeks ago my one daughter make a real come back to me and the other who professed all along stepped away well just maybe a turn around understand i have a very nice place that is nothing i have ever had before and i can afford but still must relie on food bank food have a washer dryer hook up but no money then come along a neighbor in the apt. complex and offered me a great deal i could afford and pay when i could wow no more washing by hand great then came fathers day of which yeassince i had anytime with any of my kids and actual blocked from some by the others anyway i have my oldest son who will be 46 on the 28 of july who is deaf from birth and separated thru divorce at and early age has a wonderful 800 number for the deaf that i had tried for years to get i got from a profile of him on face book at 1 30 ar. time i call him in phoenix az. and we talked tell 5 am for this was my first real conversation ever with him we had met thru the years but it was a feable attempt by me at hand signing and writing my toughts as we talked but this mark is through an interpertur which is an experience everone should experience even if you do not have a child find one to talk too it is awesome our first real conversation i had waited 46 years for over the top and looking thru his and like a chain others profile i have been emailing almost none stop contact with lost children all over the map grandchildren now grown and great grandchildren well on there way to grown wow thank you mark (shedding still) then the next night after the night of the call i got the dreaded call of a very dear friend of 55 who had kinda taken the fast lane of life passed and they was my sounding board of life one more crutch gone as i went to the funeral i discovered my ever so fateful car was going its last leg with it giving up i am at a stand still where do i go from here spent a few days of wondering my fate from there bleak for sure have no fear mark is alway there well where is the rabbit mark because the hat is very empty but my heart is full now lol my friend returned who broght me the washer said try the paper someone had a rent to own car maybe well i found and i called and it appears that are bringing the car to me and at an unheard of price and taking my car which is nothing left for the down payment and start making paynent of my choice on it now forgive me for this one but i always in my heart wanted a cad and this age deserved may be that much so i dared to dream one more time and yes is not new but withen my budget a northstar 1996 cad. for that will let me travel to those new neo-tech memebers instyle lol with one more benefit coming in point#4