Finally somethings are clicking together!

First of all, apparently I have not been able to find this part of the site before, duh me I guess. Yet I have left some thoughts somewhere, and also even recently in the Society’s web site under ‘Meet Others: General Discussion Board’
Secondly, although I have kept up with the investments, I have still had my anticivilization mystically infected mindset of skepticism.
Now as of this third meeting, some ideas seem more plausible than before, and I feel more confident about following through with them. But now I am also (possibly more) intrigued by the thought of sharing neo-tech with the public and it being my FNE.
My honest reasoning behind that possibility, is that even as a child, I remember thinking that this world is no place to be, maybe at the time I did not realize that there could have possibly been another way of life, or something that could make it much better. Yet I just found myself thinking, maybe Mark is right, my FNE is to market neothink. For starters, I realize that most of my jobs have been in some sort of sales field. And most of those jobs, have been in areas of having to prove the marketability of the product directly with the consumer. I’ve also realized through the years that any product good enough to make me a believer in what is was, made me a better salesman fore, I would find myself excited to talk about it, even if I wasn’t trying to make a sale at all. So with all that in mind, I see the cd of it all is that really I have been trying to find ways to make life better for myself, as well as others. Which makes it even more understandable of why I think that maybe, just maybe, I really was put on this earth, to make it a better world! That could really be who I was meant to be! The very idea of contributing to helping everyone move on to the C of U is actually exciting!
And for a side note.. in the post meeting, it was mentioned that a person should seek the value, not the dollar amount received, which I can find to be understandable. Yet unfortunately, I know my situation currently is in bad shape, the only thing I have going for me is keeping my boys, and my dad giving us a roof over our heads. So a monetary gain is right up my alley when I have no such income what so ever, nor any transportation possibilities to even acquire a part time job while living in the middle of no where. This is the integration point I must still try to figure out.
Anyways, thank you so much, I can really feel my inner child reaching out and screaming, and am actually feeling more motivated than I have all year!