Child of the past

Hello, I am struggling to find my child of the past. I was just thinking, My childhood was not a happy time with an abusive Father, I remember very little of my younger life, the little I do remember is not good. Because My childhood was so unhappy could that be stopping me from finding or seeing my child of the past, I so want to move on in my life, to find the person I was ment to be, Thank you Mark For finding me I feel so humbled to be a member of Neo-Think society. Love to all Nola