Searched For A Better Life

Was I searching when NT came to me? Consciously definitely not. But maybe subconsciously. As a devout christian at the time, I was still searching for something more in life. At the time, the target of my conscious search was in the form of Theology, daily “communion with God” and of what christians call “the baptism of the Holy Spirit”. When NT first came to me and after I read some of the NT Discovery online and Wallace’s “Digital Journey”, I thought NT was the antichrist. But something in me kept pulling me back to reading NT writings. Was that my Child of the Past?
Even after rejecting religion and guardedly accepting NT, I was in an Anti-civ mode because I remember wanting to live in the Anti-civ more to exploit it/profit from it. But now that no longer appeals to me and I now want all Earth to enter the C-of-U. What caused the change?

Hamilton said the child of the past is in the right half of the brain and the anti-civ in the left part of the brain. Why? How? Maybe because culture and language are intimately connected. And all of Earth’s cultures are Anti-civ cultures. So that affects the language. Many Anti-civ ideas are imbedded in the languages of Earth, e.g. “robber barons” and “dog-eat-dog” to refer to lazzai-faire. Since mysticism is a thinking problem it is also a language problem because language is a thinking tool and therefore mysticism is a Left brain problem. The right half of the brain uses language much less and therefore isn’t affected by the Anti-civ as much (if at all).

The Anti-Civ is a vestage of the Bicameral Mind. The Anti-Civ idea fits the General Bicameral Paradigm idea Julian Jaynes explains in his book.

All “great” leaders/neocheaters of the past implicitly knew about the forces of nature or the bicameral mind.