5 steps back two giant leaps forward

Hello Nellie, mark and the society. I took a small break recently from reading and the tele.sem. My mind was on overload and needed a min to process. But i’m back on full drive again! I would like to explain my title it helps to tell my journey thus far. And I also have a question this time! But will wait till the end to ask it. In July I started with greatest kept secrets OH buy the way you asked what buttons you pushed to help get me here the big FREE and money but when i saw the reference for the bible it made all the difference in the world. so when i received GKS and then the other books came they just awed me. But i didn’t read them right at first and i’m glad i didn’t. If i had I may not have purchased the other books so quickly because i would not have understood the gift i was receiving. His thoughts,emotions and words. The business I own doesn’t leave much room for spending in the winters. So all of this came at the EXACT right time for me. I once was blind but now I see. My title said i had to take 5 steps back! When I started I could forward think with no problem! It took almost no effort. It wasn’t till my year ended a few weeks ago. And had nothing to keep me busy that i had to start mini-daying my life literally! Then it all became very very hard! I realized my job was so stagnate and i have been doing it for so long it took no problem to see it. So when I first started my life I could only forward think 4hrs into a day! Now i’m at 9hrs! But I had to take my steps from the beginning. Now I’m able to see the mistakes i made for forward thinking! But have had many other good moments. Buy looking back from the start. Where when i could only stand to read maybe 10pages in a sitting. Now I read 100! That’s profound for me! Not to mention my writing is getting better. not as many run-on sentences. Mark made mention to a few EXTRAORDINARY ARTISTS! When I was growing up this music filled our home. My father loved his music! 4yrs ago he passed from cancer. I never understood his music till about two yrs after he was gone. Not hearing it fill the house anymore I don’t know I just missed it! Listening to P.D.Q bachs the short tempered clavier was what brought me back to the music and I love it now. It helps me write right now I’m listening to a copulation of artists the cd is called inspiration! Wit artist like Vaughn Williams, Elgar and ravel. But I also love Frederic chopin! I can easily hear the harmonic balances as well as the passion in his music. Its kind of funny when i was younger I never wanted to hear the music! My father would always say (in a very stern voice) CLASSICAL MUSIC WAS THE MUSIC OF THINKERS! And now I realize how right he was. And enjoy looking back NOW to the lessons not learned at that time but always remembered.Its helped me greatly along my journey here! so the 5 steps back helped me to see the mistakes I made and start fresh. And the two leaps forward well I know for certain I want to spread Neothink and make it my FNE! But by taking those steps back I can forward think MUCH better now and accurate and very clear in fact when it happens the first time it kind of scared me it was so vivid! So now that i have told you this and yes Mark I would love to take this journey with you and the society I know it wont be easy all the time but jesus said. Truly if they hate you they hated me first! Plus I think it would be kinda cool to look at someone some day that might be nearing 200yrs old and tell them they are very young and still have much to learn. Wow what a smile that would put. Well I do have a question also this time and hope that you can help me with it so here it goes. when I received my first 3 books I had a profound experience. I have something called a meditation grid. It’s a mind art poster! It has 5 dot matrix grids on it. I’ve had it for 15yrs and even though i could see 4 of the matrix grids I could never see the fifth one. Then i read Inside secrets and Neothink! It made me laugh 15yrs, countless hours read Neothink and it’s definition 2 days later I was looking at the fifth grid and it just popped! All this is very cool but my question is and i hope you may have some type of answer for me I wasnt sure. But i was always told the only stupid questions are the ones not asked. All the grids have always only gone 8 layers back. But after finally being able to see the fifth grid and the picture wasn’t totally the same as the other four I went back to look at the other four and now the pictures have changed and went from 8 layers to 17 layers back and their pictures have totally changed while i love the dot matrix grids because they are helping me to forward think I don’t understand how the pictures can change? And why it would go so many layers back from the original 8 since the grids are all supposed to have the same pictures in them I understand my mind expanding to see new things but I just don’t understand how a picture can completely change and by so many levels.

Nellieor mark could you help to enlighten me on this matter. Kirk R