Question

I’m on Disability Retirement VA, OPM Postal Division, And Social Security as part of my Postal Disability Retirement. The Disability is PTSD pursuant to combat in Vietnam. Wounded twice received The Purple Heart and C.I.B.
And as my VA final award states: “Individually Un-Employable.”
Not sure how to phrase the question but I have confusion of how the mini-day, the Self-Leader, the marketing etc applies to me as due to inability to think and act rationally at times; what me and brothers call ‘stickin thinin’.
I do have 100’s of art pieces that people love and Tee Shirts ideas I come up with everyday and have manifested some and they sell like hot cakes; but whenever I run into even the slightest BS I go nuts!!! And I go crazy in the upper chambers knowing I’m sitting on a mountain of gold (I also have six and 1/2 albums worth of lyrics) that I just can’t seem to somehow mine.
Sure hope this makes sense to someone and perhaps can address this and help me find some kind of solution to this agonizing dilemma I find myself in.